some reasons

my kids…in all honesty, some of the reasons for my anxiety.  and yet...the reason I want to change and make our life better.



moderate depressive episode.

I like the word episode as opposed to episodes…like a bad reality t.v. series with season after season of…episodes.


I was struggling really hard about 2 months ago. Like wanting to throw the laptop through the window, hard.


But, I am me. I can handle it. I don’t need help.

My version of handling it?  I nearly lost my voice one day from screaming so hard.


Frustration, embarrassment. Anxiety, denial. Anger, guilt.
And the ever popular Pride, destruction.
(oh, how I hate my pride, but that is another post for another time.)


It all came to a head about 7 weeks ago…and again 4 weeks ago.


Now, I’m getting some help. And it is getting better.


I’m sure there will be occasional reruns, but hopefully the 'episode' will fade from sight and I can get on with my own, real, seasons of life.

fun with fletchers a few weeks ago

a dirty boy and his 'mayto

getting dirty playing with his 'twuck'

finding some yummy cherry 'maytos

yummmmmm



the kiddos at about 1 month

I think Kezia and Sydney look a lot alike.

not the best comparison, but here is what I could find.

And for kicks, the boy-wonder too.

what a lug. 

Sydney's first day of 4K

Kezia - 3 Weeks on Sept. 2

saving a spot for the kids birthday party ... will add more laterr

elijah turns 2 - aug. 25

Mr. Elijah is 2

Sydney turned 4 - Aug. 10

Sydney turned 4 on Aug. 10th.

She is so proud of being 4.

Sydney has the biggest personality...captured nicely in this photo. 

This is the "MooOOOoom!" look.

Slightly confused about how many fingers. 

again, with the personality.

figuring the fingers.

out to eat for supper, sydney got a special dessert.

Elijah wants in on the finger action.

so talented. 

Sydney's present.

Showing Elijah her hand on the quilt.

Finally finished!!!

Kezia Pics

Kezia Lily

Aug. 12

7:34am

21.5 inches

9 lbs, 12 oz.