sydney's sidewalk drawing...elijah, sydney, daddy, mommy, kezia

Monday, January 31, 2011

add it to "The List"

I'm addicted to rummage sales.
I know, I've got a few months ahead of me before I can do much about this addiction.
In the meanwhile, I content myself with making "The List" of things I want to make sure and look for over the many stops this coming rummage season.

  • bigger size winter jacket for Sydney

fuzzy picture, but Elijah is good for snow pants and has a next size up jacket...check that off

Wait a second.....
what the hey!
hmm...better add

  • gender appropriate boots for Elijah

 although, he seems to be rockin' them just fine...
"say what you want...I know I'm cool"

a quick pic

Elijah mooching cheetos off of Grandpa A.
"moore, moore!"

a brief lull

sorry to leave you hanging...all three readers.  :-D

the appointment went well.  Since we are only 11 weeks along, they were not able to hear the heartbeat using the little doppler wand...which was actually a nice bonus because I got to see baby on a small ultrasound machine!!!  What a mover and shaker this kiddo is!!!!  holy cow!  The doc literally could not get a good heartbeat reading because baby was moving and twisting around so much.  Which is fine by me!  I love my active little bean.

Even better is that we are almost out of the first trimester with it's nausea and constant gagging at nothing.  (I cracked some eggs the other day for french toast.  The yolk from one of the eggs touched my finger and I nearly ralphed all over the kitchen counter!)  While I usually have really easy pregnancies, I'm definitely over the nausea.  I find it helps to eat a little every hour on the hour.  Ok, a little something is actually a whole bowl of cereal...or two, or a bagel...or two.  Yeah, I have not stepped on a scale in a few days because I am horrified at the number that may come up.

I still find myself thinking of baby Corey at random times and the what ifs.   But, I am at a better place now.  I acknowledge the feelings and bring them to God....and attempt to leave them there.  Life is crazy, but God is good.

Monday, January 17, 2011


Thursday we have our first doctor's appointment. 

I can confess...I am nervous.

I feel like there is this battle of ideas inside me. 

We could still miscarry the baby...
this appointment is around the same stage in the pregnancy as when we lost Corey. 
There are no guarentees. 
Don't dwell on the negative...enjoy the pregnancy...
while you have it.

It's not always easy,
I have to remind myself daily, that

He is LOVE

After losing Corey, the story of Job became very meaningful to me.  This song by Casting Crowns, Praise you in this Storm, really speaks to me. 
The opening line always hits me:
"I'd have thought by now, that You would have reached down,
and wiped our tears away. Stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say "Amen" and it's still rainning." 

When God allows trials in our lives, we can easily get discouraged and even frustrated.
Pain seems to us somehow contrary to what we "know" about God.
It somehow seems 'wrong' that God does not immediately right our pains and hurts...especially those we seem to suffer 'unjustly.'
Like Job's friends, we offer cut and dry answers based on our own understanding and perspective.

I want to be like Job...
at the end of it all, God revealed Himself to Job...
all-knowing, awesome and just. 

I hope that, whatever the outcome, I am able to praise God, trust Him and submit to His will.

Then Job replied to the LORD:

"I know that you can do anything, and no one can stop you.
You ask, `Who is this that questions my wisdom with such ignorance?' It is I. And I was talking about things I did not understand, things far too wonderful for me.
You said, `Listen and I will speak! I have some questions for you, and you must answer them.'
I had heard about you before, but now I have seen you with my own eyes.
I take back everything I said, and I sit in dust and ashes to show my repentance."
job 42:1-6 (NLT)

Friday, January 14, 2011

christmas presents

christmas day...finally posted

the one sydney is most excited about...her little art kit.  complete with crayons, markers, watercolor paints and safety scissors.

Elijah got some trucks to go with a little racetrack from grandma.
the second he got the wrapping off, he started pulling on the cars and yelling, "uck, uck!!" (stuck)

the big one-
Sydney's Wall-E Quilt

well, the center panel's going to be a twin size blanket when it is all said and done, but between the pregnancy chaos and other christmas planning, I was not able to finish the quilt.  Most of the quilt top is complete, it's just a matter of assembling it.

love me

the pose
the cheeks
the staire

they all say,

you know you love me

Monday, January 3, 2011

lacking personality

ok, so I know our blog has been lacking more personal posts with pictures lately, but I hope to get more up soon.  our computer is a disease-ridden dinosaur and crashes constantly...especially when I try to work with photos.  So, hopefully one of these days, I'll just power through the crashes and get some much needed photos up.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

lightbulb moment

We had our main floor bathroom remodeled last year. (Of course, by “we”, I mean “we” hired professionals who knew what they were doing to remodel our bathroom.) One of the many improvements was additional overhead lighting. Of course, being the age of conservation, some sort of energy saving bulb was installed on the main light. Mind you, we are not against energy saving or anything like that, but it was always a bit of a sore point that the bulb took quite a while to “warm up” to be bright enough to be useful, so we would often end up turning on the vanity lights as well.

Well, now many months later, Wayne had a “light bulb moment” on New Year ’s Day when he finally just took out the offending light bulb and replaced it with a brighter style. I came into the bathroom, he threw the switch and said, “It’s my house, I can change things if I want to!”

I don’t know why, but it struck me as kinda meaningful. I started thinking about making changes and just sort of “noodled” from there. (From the book, Men are like Waffles, Women are like Spaghetti, referring to how men and women think differently…men in boxes, each area in its place and separate, and women in long strands that connect and intertwine.) I thought of James 1:23-25 which talks about someone who looks at himself in the mirror, but then immediately “forgets” what he looks like and does not do a thing to fix his appearance. How often am I aware, or even complain, about faults within myself I do not like, yet do nothing to change it…kind of like that dumb light bulb we let irritate us for months on end without doing anything about it.

I don’t want to take this beyond it’s intended meaning, but I found it to be timely and thought I would share with you all. These verses from James are referring specifically to listening and obeying God’s Word, and I don’t know about you, but I find the Bible to be full of instruction in areas I wish to improve; parenting, relationships, godly living, and much more.

What is going on in your life that you are not fixing?

Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it-he will be blessed in what he does. (James 1:23-25)

Saturday, January 1, 2011

ultrasound pics from 12/21

ultrasound from 12/21/2010

5w6d...size of a blueberry