mostly me in real life
the ramblings of me...usually life, family, quilts and decorating
sydney's sidewalk drawing...elijah, sydney, daddy, mommy, kezia
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
my kids…in all honesty, some of the reasons for my anxiety. and yet...the reason I want to
and make our life better.
moderate depressive episode.
I like the word
as opposed to
…like a bad reality t.v. series with season after season of…
I was struggling really hard about 2 months ago. Like wanting to throw the laptop through the window, hard.
But, I am me. I can handle it. I don’t need help.
My version of handling it? I nearly lost my voice one day from screaming so hard.
Frustration, embarrassment. Anxiety, denial. Anger, guilt.
And the ever popular Pride, destruction.
(oh, how I hate my pride, but that is another post for another time.)
It all came to a head about 7 weeks ago…and again 4 weeks ago.
Now, I’m getting some help. And it is getting better.
I’m sure there will be occasional reruns, but hopefully the 'episode' will fade from sight and I can get on with my own, real,
seasons of life